sad feeling..

right now, i dont know if i will cry or what.. I know 6 weeks pa ang result ng ek. But sobra nakakalungkot ang paghihintay, unang una dami na ako naiisip what if mangyari ulit ung tulad ng 1st and 2nd application ko na di kahit pumasa na ko laging nagkakaproblem. here i go again, i applied again eventhough ilang beses na ko nafrustrate.. I really want this job. I wanna get in. Sometimes naiisip ko, what if kahit anung gusto ko kung hinsi naman to gusto ni God for me diba? kaya cguro lagi nagkakaproblem sa applicatin process ko. Now i dnt know kung anu na naman mggiging dahilan para di ako matuloy.. Malay natin di ako ma approve ng ek. I am a positive thinker naman but i am trying to accept the fact that kung hindi man ako pumasa this time maybe He has a purpose. And I am hoping whatever purpose He has I am sure I will be happy naman. Well, I am now trying to accept the pain in case di ako makapasa this time sa EK. Sabi nila, ok lang un kahit di pumasa just move on, dont think about it.. But its not that easy naman eh.how can u not think of it eh thats what u really wanted diba? Am sure sa mga applicants jan u can relate.. How painful..